Category: Mental Health
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A Cup of Tea With the Past Me
You. Hi. I never thought you would find me here. I guess it was only a matter of time. I am 2000 miles away, it’s so early in the day. I haven’t given this address to anyone yet! I’m surprised you found me here. This place where nothing is as it once was. My life…
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Thoughts on the Vigil for Ruth Bader Ginsburg
I had picked up on an illusion at some point in my life, that people in a time of grief became one. Huddling for warmth and connection under a blanket of silence and humility. That in the face of death, we might stand together. Be afraid together. I had thought of candle light vigils to…
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Forgiveness
Forgiveness, hello. It’s good to see you again. I’ve been in so much pain these past few weeks. In the mornings I wake up sad. At night I sleep angry. I think about you a lot. Why did you leave me alone? I never forgot you, you know. At 5pm last Tuesday I walked through…
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Changing Colors
Change cuts into my flesh because I push against it. I push so hard that what could have been soft and gentle in another lifetime enters my reality like bits of the road hitting a car windshield on the freeway. Change chips away at me like this, because I let it. My body feels like…
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where are my things?
Note: this post contains experiences of sexual assault and violation. I remember a room. I saw that room many times from the age of 3 to 5. It was always dark, the door was always locked, and there was always chatter surrounding it. There was the chatter of the guest downstairs, where I would occasionally…
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Tangerine
I haven’t been feeling like myself lately. But I guess it’s hard to feel like yourself when you don’t even know who you are anymore. After years of working towards self stability, writing and reflecting, letting people in, and living by my own rules and motivations; I found a home in my mind. Given time,…
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human bean
For years I loved missing school. From elementary to middle, you could find me faking fevers and conjuring stomach aches about every other week. This was how I avoided the bullies, the insecurity I found in the mirror, the lack of friends, and the FitnessGram Pacer Test. Looking back, I missed a lot that could…
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leather & peppermint tea
We sat in the office that smelled of leather and peppermint tea. Me across from him and the loose leaf notebook. Me eyes drifted to the intricate yet simple waterfall painting I had seen time and time again against the carrot colored walls as I waited for him to finish scribbling down notes from the…
fine heart thief 